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There is a ton of stress filling my life and my attitude is not helping it. My actions and old patterns have settled in for the long haul so today I decided to act on behalf of my health and well being.
Our school has been negotiating the new contract since January and we have been working without a contract since June. The union and school board are at odds and a federal mediator has been meeting with them for a few weeks now. A strike could be called at anytime and it is draining. I am working hard to "act as if" everything is normal. Praying the serenity prayer since it is nothing I can change. If the teachers strike my position gets locked out which means no income for our family and stress of unemployment for the short term.
In addition I have changed positions at work from Special Ed teachers aid to a clerk/receptionist in the Dean's office 4 weeks ago, this new position will offer the benefit of health insurance after 30 days...the catch, the Special Ed. dept won't release me until they fill my position. They interviewed candidates and did not hire one so they re-opened the posting...the insurance date continues to get pushed back. And I continue to breathe deep.
I am simply using this journal as a tool to release some of this stress. We ahve been blessed with a business deal that provided our family enough money to catch and cover our bills for November. Besides my husband catching a nasty flu and my son getting a skin virus from his football helmet we are a healthy family. It is the constant weight that looms over us financially that causes the most pressure. I have been making sure to team up with my husband to keep our relationship on track so the finances do not cause a wall and finger pointing.
But I need to take control of what I can change and that means what goes in my mouth and how much my body moves. I have packed on 20 pounds since school started and it is too much. I have proved once again that I am not a "normal" eater and must maintain boundaries. It's okay. Tomorrow I am going to journal an atitude of gratitude. I need a change of mind.
다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2009년 11월 16일:
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1360 kcal
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지방: 53.14g | 단백질: 68.50g | 탄수화물: 169.90g.
아침 식사: cereal, peanut butter, apple, brown sugar, oatmeal, skim milk, almonds. 점심 식사: cucumber, light italian dressing, cottage cheese, hard boiled egg, tomato, iceburg lettuce. 저녁 식사: boil in bag brown rice, string cheese, asian specialties. 간식/기타: pizza, caramel rice cakes . 더보기
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2666 kcal
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운동:
웨이트 트레이닝 (적당한 무게) - 20 분, 운동 기계 (느리게) - 20 분, 휴식 - 15 시간 20 분, 숙면 - 8 시간. 더보기
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