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Today is a new day. Trying to start fresh again. I am not ashamed of myself. I have not been cheating or anything like that. I just have not been eating enough of the right things and need to start fresh again to make sure that I am learning how to live with this WOE. While I am not ashamed of myself, I am sad. part of what i love about Atkins is that I don't have to be overly regimented. As long as I know that what I am eating has few net carbs, I don't really have to plan what to eat or think about food all that much. Guess what i loved about this WOE was false.
I think I have learned that the stereotype of a fat person is wrong and that even when I did not think I had a seterotype of a fat person in my head I must have. Those of us who are fat are not necessarily obsessed with food. We don't even like food all that much. We don't want to think about food and that mindless eating is our downfall. It is true that we may not eat as much as our skinny friends - we just eat the wrong things for our bodies because we don't want to really think about food and eat out of necessity, emotion, whatever.
I certainly know that this is not true for all of us. But for me, this is a large part of the problem. Not certain how to fix this. How do you fix your basic nature and something that you really don't want to change?? I don't want to think about food. I have way too many other things to think about. I thought logging everything was a difficult change to make and really more than i wanted to do. I do it because I learned that I needed to be able to look back and see what I really did rather than what I thought I did. So now i log my food obsessively.
Teaching myself to actually think about food is not going to be easy but it looks as if i will have to do it. My preference is to find a menue that will work on the road and at home and just follow it every day. but i know that is not the best way to deal with this. I am one who can eat the same thing everyday but the truth is that I get to where I don't eat. I get to where i prefer not to eat than to eat what I can eat and even don't want things I can't eat. Oh well...
Enough ranting and raving and whining.... I am going to get to it! 29s here I come!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2011년 08월 12일:
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1864 kcal
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지방: 135.75g | 단백질: 131.40g | 탄수화물: 27.76g.
아침 식사: Real Mayonnaise, baby dill pickles, Egg, Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee (Brewed From Grounds) . 점심 식사: garlic salt, tomato. 저녁 식사: Lettuce, Florida Avocados , Cucumber (Peeled) , Ranch Dressing, Beef Steak. 간식/기타: baby dill pickle. 더보기
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