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The corn syrup I am over estimating it, but at the school house they make these peanut butter, and corn syrup sandwiches on white bread. They put a smidget in it,less, but more than what I am putting down. The thing is that I was hungry. I had no super and that what happens, till I got home, than I ate my real Super. It can be very hard. I see you must put yourself a priority, but we are so overwhelmed on what to eat anyway. I walked with George about 55 minutes, I know that is not enough because I think, and I walk, and I do not challenge myself enough as I should be, but I am thinking at least I am making an effort to move my body, and to get out of the house. Unfortunate I still have this trip back to Greece, which I dread!! I wish I did not have to go!! That's how bad I feel with myself and with my body. I know this is sad of course other things as well, but that is one bog thing.
Yesterday, as I was saying to one of you I tried to listen to a good friend on the phone, the thing is I started giggling at the start of my phone call. She said I am always thinking, then I said, yeah me too! I was at the computer thinking, and I turned it on, but the thing being that it had been already on, then I pushed the button 2-3 more times, and I really got the computer confused, it kind of froze for a while like, what the heck is she doing so I started giggling, and laughing away.......... well, it came sour out my nose, she started talking and telling me news,.......... is the baby okay I said, the one that was in her life I am going to get there she said. Bad news, I was confused because she was telling me this story, then she started crying, I had to pause, like a slow motion tape when it has to catch up. I remember blowing my nose, and my mind had a stall, then she told me the question I had been thinking and when I had asked. It was not what I wanted to hear, I started blurting out in tears, and it is like I was kind of outside my body, and how did this moment come to me. You put a thorn in my heart I told her, she did not mean to, she was the messenger of bad news that was all. How could I not have compassion? How could I not of cried? This was the second time in a week so it seems of bad news. One was someone loosing a baby while it was being carried in the belly, and now again this one, and it hit me like a freight train! Which I wish would of happened because it would not of hurt my heart as much. I realize that I do react with my environment, and that it plays a big impact on me, with weight, with eating, and such. I could not eat something for a while. And with Georges surgery, and hers, well, I did not eat for days. Even in my dreams I dreampt of this situation that I had to face on the phone, it just caught me unexpected, for I did not prepare myself for either one, hers being the hardest to hear. I do not know why bad things happen? For me it makes a big difference. Will write again later, dear diary! For now I need to go to purchase fencing for George, money market spending book here we come. Oh great! Will God remember me in this life? I pray for peace so we can all pull through with our diets, and our exercising, bye for now! Please take care of yourselves! Ekaterini-Kathy
다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2011년 03월 25일:
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2081 kcal
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지방: 79.44g | 단백질: 84.83g | 탄수화물: 277.16g.
아침 식사: corn syrup, Berryhill creamy peanut butter, cramy jif peanut butter, orange juice, enriched white bread. 점심 식사: morning star veggie sausage links, Light Mayonnaise, tomato, wonder 100%whole wheat bread, White Bread, great value extra virgin olive oil, eggs. 저녁 식사: green pepper, reggios cheese pizza. 간식/기타: orange, tostitos tortilla chips, mini tootsie pop. 더보기
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2561 kcal
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운동:
걷기 (느리게) - 3km/h - 55 분, 휴식 - 15 시간 5 분, 숙면 - 8 시간. 더보기
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