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Patience is the hardest part of weight loss for me. I get in a hurry to see results and sometimes I won't even acknowledge the results I have attained.
May be this will make sense to some and not to others. I am not REALLY discouraged, I have no reason to be. If I was speaking to someone else instead of to myself I would be praising their results so far and encouraging them to keep up the good work. But I am impatient and I want to see 5 lb per week losses, which is just not possible right now nor would it necessarily be healthy or sustainable.
I have a lot of things to juggle for the next few weeks and that is why I must be tender with myself. I am not eating poorly in spite of the stressful days I have bee experiencing and that is good. But my mood has been blue and sometimes angry, with myself and others.
I have asked for help where I need it and sometimes people come through and sometimes they don't. I have not asked them to do things I need to do, only to take a few responsibilities off my plate until I get through the next few weeks. I feel I have been very realistic and not imposing. I just wish they (my family, mostly) would be consistent in pitching in to help or responding to my requests. I don't want to ask for the same things week after week.
Anyway, my thoughts can quickly take my mind and feelings into a swirling whirlpool, like a bathtub draining. And that would be all right if I could learn to let those feelings go right down the drain.
Guess it's time to have the same conversation with my husband and grown children about how I could use their help the next few weeks, again.
The purpose of this post is just to let some of my feelings out. And to try to make some sense to myself about keeping my focus and knowing this is short term stress.
Thanks for listening. Assuming someone may be reading this. :)
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