"Optimism is the faith that leads to achievement. Nothing can be done without hope and confidence. - Helen Keller"
Good morning everyone! I have been so busy lately and it just frustrates me that i made a promise to you all that I would be here and I havent been!! I hate it! I love the support and love that I have received from all of you and its just sad that my life has gotten so crazy that I cannot find time to prioritize sitting down to blog and tell you all how I have been and support you all!
Ugg, and on that note, I know that being here helps me so much because I have literally been yo-yoing up and down the last three months. I went from 336lbs to 350lbs and back down to 338lb and right now I am sitting at 345lbs. I am so frustrated!! I have tried changing things up. I was counting calories for a while, but eating carbs again made me feel groggy and gross. I was telling my husband that I may be slightly allergic to gluten, because whenever I eat pasta or bread, I get terrible stomach cramps, I get headaches, and overall, just feel gross. I may have to stop eating breads and pastas forever. That makes me so sad, because, for those who have followed me from the start, I love bread! I have always loved bread, and pasta. Keto was hardest for me in that respect, I didnt want to give up bread and pasta. I was fine giving up candy and stuff like that, but bread, pasta and Dr. Pepper were the hardest things for me. Right now I have got back onto keto, I am working on getting back into ketosis, because I ate McDonalds the other night and chicken nuggets and fries are definitely not keto-friendly. lol
I know another aspect of it, I need to start walking and working out again. I was walking every day and getting in 6-9000 steps a day, and now I am averaging around 5000 and thats not ok. I have a bike under my desk at work, but in reality, those arent super calorie burners. And I dont use it all day long. I have almost talked my boss into getting us a corporate gym membership and that way I can get up around 5am, get to the gym by 6am and still get to work by 8. I am thinking that I will start out 3 days a week, then go from there. I just need something more.
I did make a change that will help with that though! I got a puppy!! I know I mentioned it last night, but I wanted to go into a little more detail. She is a German Shepherd/Blue Heeler mix, and shes adorable. She is so smart, she already sits at the door and whines to go out, she only does her "business" in the grass area and she walks on the leash very well. Of course, she is still a puppy and she bites at it and tries to pull free, but shes learning really well. We ran a little bit yesterday, and it was so nice! I know that walking with her at nights will help. I am going to make it a habit, when I get home from work, the first thing I do is take her for a run and that will help me get in more steps a day and will bond her and I. I am so excited. I have never had a dog that was "mine", it was always other people in my home that had the dog. Aurora is mine, and she is so adorable!! I love her already!! I will post some pictures so you all can see her!
I going to take a day and write. I used to write short stories and I loved it. I would take a song, a celebrity and write a story for my sisters or friends. It took my mind off things and overall, but made me happy. I miss doing it. I always thought about publishing a story, but I never felt that I was good enough. It was always something that was fun for me though, to create a world in my head that I could control...though I soon found out that my characters did not like being controlled and no matter how I tried to write the story, they would end up doing what they wanted. They would tell me story, if that makes sense. Its so freeing for me to just sit down with a computer and some music and just write. I just put on a pot of Kimera Coffee...if you havent tried it, look it up, its amazing!
Today I prayed for faith. I pray that the Lord gives me the faith of Daniel, in the lion's den, knowing that God was going to protect him in the face of hungry lions. I pray for the faith of Abraham, after God gave him the son he begged for, willing to sacrifice him to God because his faith told him that no matter what, God would give him his son. I want a faith unshakable. I pray for all of those who want the same, that we find this faith in us. Faith that God has it in control, no matter the situation that we are facing. No matter how high the walls seem, Jericho saw those walls fall!! I pray healing and love over all of us, I pray that we are giving the strength to keep pushing forward, even if it seems that we keep sliding back. I pray for love, patience, and guidance. I praise the name of the Lord, and will worship him in all I do. I pray the same for each and every person here. In the holy name of Jesus, amen!!
I hope that you all have a wonderful day! I hope that you are all doing well. I am going to so my best to write more, at least once a week, if not more! I love it and miss you all!! Sending my love, prayers, and support!! Lets all reach our goals and keep running!!!
