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"The world breaks everyone, and afterward, some are stronger at the broken places" - Ernest Hemingway
Hello everyone!! I hope that you all had a fabulous day! Mine was alright, nothing too terrible, just work. I am trying to learn to love everyday, no matter what happens, because there are times that I can get so deep into my own mind and depression that its hard for me to get back out and I dont like being there. I am learning that I cannot control other people, I can only control how I react to other people. That is a big one for me, because I try and try to make everyone happy, and I cannot always do that. There are some people who are going to be unhappy, no matter how hard you try and you cannot let them being miserable get you down.
So, I have had some terrible luck at work lately. They have been just so hard to deal with. I was told that I was stealing, which I wasnt, and a camera was put into my office to watch everything I do. I was told that if I "take so much as an envelope from this building" that I would be fired. I have never stolen anything from them, I have always tried to do everything I could to HELP their business, but they are being crazy. I dont understand what happened, or why they think these things about me, but I am working hard at getting another job. I cannot work there any longer. The harassment was one thing, I could overlook that, but now they are attacking my personal character and I will not continue to be in such a toxic place. It has gotten so bad that the new girl we hired mentioned it to me, that she didnt understand why they treat me so bad and asked me how I could handle it. I told her that I had to pay my bills, I had to work to live, so I have to deal with it until I find something else.
Luckily, my neighbor in my new apartment is a high up at JB Hunt, so he recommended me for a few different positions there, and I have applied. Now its just the waiting game. I will miss my friend John, who I have worked with for the last 8yrs and has become one of my very best friends, but I know that for my own mental stability, I have to leave. I just cannot continue to work in such a terrible environment. Change is always a little scary, but it helps us grow.
As for my weightloss journey, I have gained this past month. I let myself go, I celebrated getting a new place and then Thanksgiving happened and I just did not get back on track. I only gained a little, but a gain is a gain and I do not want them! I am working hard to reverse those bad habits again, and having to take that one step at a time. I have done it before, but I will be honest, it seems harder this time around. I know I can do it, I am just frustrated at myself for letting it get out of hand. I will be back on track in no time, I am strong enough to do it. Its just annoying that I let it get like this. My ketoversary is January 2nd, and my FSversary is January 18th, so I am hoping to be down quite a bit by that time. I have gone through a lot this year, with all of you, and without you, I couldnt have made it this far. I love you all!!
I lift my life up to the Lord, my journey into health, my job, my living situation and everything else because He has carried me here before. He has guided me and brought me to a place of victory and I know that He will do it again. He is my rock, my tower, and my savior! God, I thank you for the people here, who have helped me get to where I am. I thank you for the kindness and support they have shown me. I pray that you touch their lives, give them strength and shower them with love, just like they have done for me. I praise you and thank you, in Jesus holy name, Amen!!
I hope you all know how much you mean to me. You have allowed me to share my victories and my struggles and been there every step of the way. Thank you! I love you all!!
다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2018년 12월 6일:
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1075 kcal
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지방: 88.93g | 단백질: 59.24g | 탄수화물: 13.97g.
아침 식사: Butter (Salted), Kroger Hard Salami, Herdez Casera Mild Salsa, Great Value Mild Finely Shredded Cheddar Cheese, Scrambled Egg. 저녁 식사: Corn, Butter (Salted), Beef Top Sirloin (Trimmed to 1/8" Fat), Denny's Fresh Sautéed Zucchini & Squash. 더보기
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