You are such an inspiration! I know this a hard, long road but you have conquered it. Down 100 lbs. That is truly phenomenal! One thing I will share with you is that when I feel left behind by God, I pray for others and thank God for the good in my life. I pray that God presents a person to me whose life I can make a difference in. Being of service to someone else always helps me get outside of myself. Whether you realize it or not, God has gifted that to you. You have been blessed to have helped others with your story. You are probably saving someone's life by sharing your strength, hope, and encouragement.