Shelly25님의 저널, 2024년 04월 16일

Omg...I ate Taco Bell yesterday too!

Hey everybody, how are you? Happy Tuesday! I went to my doctor appt yesterday. It was my first visit with the new doctor. I absolutely love her. It is a rarity to find a doctor who is very nice, understanding, insightful, respectful, and thorough towards somebody who is overweight or obese. She is a gem.

I gave her my full medical history. I spoke to her about all of my past trauma. It felt great to be heard by somebody who is impartial. Let's make this clear. She is my primary care physician, not a mental health therapist or a psychiatrist. I am just a gabber and she listened.

I told her that I haven't had an actual doctor in years. I told her that I would go to a sliding, low-cost clinic in Philadelphia where I would attend all doctor examinations, receive lab work, x-rays, prescription medications, etc. I didn't have an actual personal doctor for the longest time.

I thought the visit went pretty well. There was no judgement, and I have received judgement in the past. I will never forget this time when I threw out my back. I was in so much pain, I decided to visit the doctor to get some pain medicine. He only saw me as a 280-pound female walking into his practice. As I was hunched over on the table, he chastised me about my weight and how I should only eat fruits and vegetables at this point. I was in tears. Doctor, look at me as a person. Would you give the cold shoulder to somebody who is 90 pounds who needed medical assistance? Would you sorely judge THAT person for experiencing back troubles? Would you listen more aptly to their concerns just because he/she isn't overweight or obese? I was crying my eyes out on the table for many different reasons. I was in terrible pain, I had a doctor who looked at me as just another fat person who has zero control in life, and doesn't want to listen to what brought me to this point. Can you please treat my back, Doc? He wrote a script. As I was crying from the pain, sheer humiliation, and the lack of sympathy, he left me and walked out of the room. Suffice to say, I never returned to see that doctor ever again.

I am at a great point right now. I really have a fantastic doctor, and I verbalized that to her. My blood pressure was in the 170 range when I was first checked. It was 160/? the second time I was checked. I am going for bloodwork very soon. She restarted me on blood pressure medicine. I took medication in the past, but I haven't taken medicine for a while. She was very happy with my weight loss and the fact that I started at the gym around the corner from me. I thought the visit went very well. I am so happy that I am taking care of myself again! 😃