Grr. My complete fault for the gain - I caved and didn't follow my meal plan. I don't even know what to say. It is my fault. I allowed myself to be/feel triggered and that is something I can control.
Stress, pressure (kid injury, hours at Kaiser, and then I finally did my taxes) and then good ol' degrading and mean mother and I revert to a kid again. I was so hurt and then I was angry. I shared with her my news about losing 10lbs and how excited I was and her response was hurtful, self serving, and just flat our mean all while she was putting me down and judging me.
Today I have a much healthier response and I don't care - that is her crazy. I am sad for her that in all of these years she has not been able to change or grow into a nicer person. I am still trying to figure out what my ultimate response will be. My typical response is to just stop talking to her and walk away. I moved out when I was 13 to escape the craziness BUT my son absolutely adores her. Something to continue to think about.
I am back at it and I know it will take me at least 3 days to get back to where I was. Stupid me. Lesson - by now should be - learned. No more.
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94.5 kg
지금까지 감소한: 7.5 kg.
남은양: 33.3 kg.
다이어트 실행도: 잘 따르지 않음.
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다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2024년 03월 11일:
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1355 kcal
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지방: 110.19g | 단백질: 78.19g | 탄수화물: 33.29g.
아침 식사: Heritage Farm Black Forest Ham, Dunkin' Donuts Dunkin Cinnamania Ground Coffee, Egg, Del Monte Avocado, Kraft 3 Cheese Mexicana Shredded Cheese, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original. 점심 식사: Beef Top Sirloin (Lean Only, Trimmed to 0" Fat, Cooked, Broiled), Kirkland Signature Shredded Tex Mex Cheese, Daisy Sour Cream, Del Monte Avocado. 저녁 식사: Cauliflower Rice, Jalapeno Popper Chicken, Del Monte Avocado. 간식/기타: Kroger Hard Salami, Kroger Hard Salami. 더보기
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주 2.5 kg 증가하기
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