MommaCan님의 저널, 2024년 03월 11일

Grr. My complete fault for the gain - I caved and didn't follow my meal plan. I don't even know what to say. It is my fault. I allowed myself to be/feel triggered and that is something I can control.

Stress, pressure (kid injury, hours at Kaiser, and then I finally did my taxes) and then good ol' degrading and mean mother and I revert to a kid again. I was so hurt and then I was angry. I shared with her my news about losing 10lbs and how excited I was and her response was hurtful, self serving, and just flat our mean all while she was putting me down and judging me.

Today I have a much healthier response and I don't care - that is her crazy. I am sad for her that in all of these years she has not been able to change or grow into a nicer person. I am still trying to figure out what my ultimate response will be. My typical response is to just stop talking to her and walk away. I moved out when I was 13 to escape the craziness BUT my son absolutely adores her. Something to continue to think about.

I am back at it and I know it will take me at least 3 days to get back to where I was. Stupid me. Lesson - by now should be - learned. No more.
94.5 kg 지금까지 감소한: 7.5 kg.    남은양: 33.3 kg.    다이어트 실행도: 잘 따르지 않음.

다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2024년 03월 11일:
1355 kcal 지방: 110.19g | 단백질: 78.19g | 탄수화물: 33.29g.   아침 식사: Heritage Farm Black Forest Ham, Dunkin' Donuts Dunkin Cinnamania Ground Coffee, Egg, Del Monte Avocado, Kraft 3 Cheese Mexicana Shredded Cheese, Silk Pure Almond Milk - Unsweetened Original. 점심 식사: Beef Top Sirloin (Lean Only, Trimmed to 0" Fat, Cooked, Broiled), Kirkland Signature Shredded Tex Mex Cheese, Daisy Sour Cream, Del Monte Avocado. 저녁 식사: Cauliflower Rice, Jalapeno Popper Chicken, Del Monte Avocado. 간식/기타: Kroger Hard Salami, Kroger Hard Salami. 더보기
2513 kcal 운동: Apple Health - 24 시간. 더보기
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You've got this! Keep moving forward as I know you will! 🙃 
2024년 03월 11일 작성이: Laurie62707
My mother has completely cut my grandmother out of her life (for very similar reasons that you are describing). And she was a happier person as a result. She wanted my brother and I to cut all relations with her as well, but I continued talking to grandma until her death. I loved my grandma even though she was a psychopath, but I'm also happy my mother didn't have to suffer interacting with her. So I'm theory you can have both, cut all relations with your mother and don't break the relationship between your son and her. 
2024년 03월 12일 작성이: EyesoftheBlueDog

     
 

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