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I can not believe that one can eat well while on a diet! For me, the word "diet" is synonym to pain and suffering. Yesterday I had a really good day in spite of the "late night binge" (LOL if I can call it that....)... OK, this is what happened: around 1 AM I felt a "stuff yourself" nudge, but I did not feel any hunger. I tried to ignore it but there it was: "EAT! EAT! EAT!" ... I don't know why I stuff myself at night, oh yes, I know it sooo well!!! This loneliness is killing me! So, not having any huge amounts of chocolate to throw myself into a coma, not really having the desire for it, cause if I did... hey! I can still walk... hurray! I could have "run" to a 24 hrs. drug store to get my drugs! (OK, the truth is that besides loneliness reson to diet, which is a big one for a "still young in my mind" 36 yrs. old woman, I had this fear of not being able to move because my joints started to hurt; when I go to the gym I don't spend more than 10 minutes on treadmill, then I walk only at no more than 2.5 speed BUT 6.0 incline so I won't "pound" my knees, 'cause they hurt. Eliptical is better, smoother on the knees, even if it's harder as far as movement... I don't care, right now I'm moving like I'm set to "replay" compared to other people on elipticals, but I do move for almost an hours with a pulse around of 120 (I spend 600 cals). OK, back to the "binge". So, chocolate was out of the question, anyway, chocolate is never a full binge, just the ending, or begining, or in between... a binge for me must have serious quantities of fats and carbs, but I should call it "junk" becuase I don't ingest anything nutritious during such times... so... last night... all alone.... I was so naughty-naughty... I had 2 extra slices of pumpernickel/rye toast and a cup of chicken boullion on top of my 1,200 cals after 1 AM!!! It felt pretty satisfying last night. I woke up today feeling all "puffed up" like after a binge, (minus the pains), my face was a bit puffy, maybe because of the MSG in the goya chicken boullion, but miracle of miracles!!! ANOTHER POUND DOWN ON THE SCALE!!!!!!!!... I'll have another great day today!!!!
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