g_ortegam님의 저널, 2018년 10월 8일

I’m trying hard to keep my head up. So many things are happening that make me question whether or not I’m doing the right thing. Now while I’m not gaining weight and trying to take care of myself physically (yay for me) this emotional rollercoaster is kicking my ass. I’m hoping that our appointment today (counseling) will help my nephew and I start to heal.
Am I doing the right thing. Should I just take a step back and let his parents do what they need to do. These are all things I wonder and honestly I wonder if I’m the one causing further issues.
Idk and I apologize for being cryptic but something happened yesterday and now I’m wondering if people really do view myself as toxic. I care so much.
101.8 kg 지금까지 감소한: 34.3 kg.    남은양: 20.1 kg.    다이어트 실행도: 합리적.

다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2018년 10월 8일:
1248 kcal 지방: 100.80g | 단백질: 68.03g | 탄수화물: 15.34g.   점심 식사: Mission Avocado, Wal-Mart Beef Sirloin Petite Steak, Nathan's Famous Jumbo Restaurant Style Beef Franks. 간식/기타: Clover Stornetta Farms Heavy Whipping Cream, Coffee, Dutch Bros. Coffee Keto Americano. 더보기
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Take Care! 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: adefwebserver
Yes, take care! 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: nikeit
taking care of yourself is so important and counseling sounds like a good idea ♥️ 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: reggionon
I think counseling right now will help you get focused and give you direction. it helps to have someone that is non judgemental to bounce your feelings and thoughts off of. and I think both of you need private session before you do joint session, though I don't know exactly the situation. maybe you do need joint. but having the freedom to air it all out without restriction is very helpful. 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: baskington
Boy do I ever relate to that feeling that I am toxic to everyone around me - keeping those feelings at bay by taking care of myself! If Im not happy - no one around me is! Right? I think we are both on the right track! We have to be! Hang in there friend! 🌟🌟🌟 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: kikibee5
I come back to FS to get away from myself, who when things are going well, starts the self sabotage. UUGH!!! G_ortegam, take care of yourself. 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: chesgreen
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️ 
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: g_ortegam
I’ve come to view myself as toxic 😢. From what hubby says, everyone hates me and feels that they can’t be themselves because I’ll yell at them for destroying the house right after I cleaned it or get upset when they sabotage my diet. On one hand I think I’m being reasonable (I don’t yell until after the third warning) and they should respect my choices and my hard work. But yet I can’t ignore what he’s saying either. My counselor says she wouldn’t call it toxic but rather more irritable and not as compromising when the household disrespects me or my work (stay at home mom who volunteers). She also says that we have to find a new balance and hubby is refusing to give an inch. So I totally get the self doubt stuff too. Ask yourself... is this the best for the boy? If you don’t do this, will he get the help he needs? Honestly just tell the counselor this upfront and after a few appointments she will be able to help you see the truth ;). Good luck and I hope the appointments go well!  
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: peeperjj
So sorry you're going through this. Years ago, counseling was the only place/time I felt normal. Good luck.  
2018년 10월 8일 작성이: Becc@
Therapy can help us see so much - hopeful for y'all  
2018년 10월 9일 작성이: From371to184
Sending good thoughts your way, @G! 
2018년 10월 9일 작성이: jengetfit123
Stop weighing every day. You are looking for something to find self-hate. Twice a week is enough. Also be easy on yourself. I know not drinking as much is hard. One vice at a time! Do few things and do them well. 
2018년 10월 9일 작성이: NOLAMOMMY

     
 

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