I'm a 23 year old mama to a beautiful baby boy. CJ was born December 16, 2008. He's my first baby and he's the joy of my life.

I've definitely let myself over the years. I'm digusted with my weight although I've been steady over the past few years (with the exception of my pregnancy). I'm back to my pre-pregnancy weight, but I am not happy at all. I can't fit into my clothes without feeling huge. I feel disgusting looking. I used to be able to walk up and down a flight of stairs without breathing heavy, and I can't even do that anymore. My husband doesn't look at me like he used to. I hate that most of all. He isn't the most toned and athletic guy as we all know, BUT I used to like knowing he looked at me like he wanted me. Now, I just don't feel that way.

More than anything, I want to be able to look into the mirror and not be horrified or disgusted with what I'm looking at.

It's giog to require a lot of work, dedication and support. Thanks to a friend who introduced me to this site, I feel that it is most definitely possible now. There is a good support system, and I just have to start taking control of my every day decisions!! =)