Hi other people that are in this boat as well! My name is Kandi. I live in Hastings, New Zealand. I recently turned 25 last friday (04/04). I have 2 daughters Samontae and Tarshay. Im trying to get my own business up and running doing hair and makeup.

Ive never been a skinny girl - except when i went thru my rough drinking/sex/drugs stage but since giving up on those things i have turned to food as a comfort. i was in an abusive relationship for 3 years and was forced to gain weight so other men wouldnt look at me.I used to have alot of confidence but my x sort of changed that for me. BUT I WANT MY LIFE BACK! Image is a HUGE part of my business so i want to look the best that i can. - i read somewhere a mantra: WOT YOU EAT IN PRIVATE, SHOWS IN PUBLIC!I dont want a muffin top spilling out of my jeans or for my thighs to roll, or to have to keep pulling down my top at the sides and when sitting having to sit straight so you cant see my rolls hanging over or pulling up my zip cos im too fat that it bursts open. Having to squeeze my body into a slimming suit so others dont see all my lumps and bumps. (You all know wot i mean!)

This made me really think about how i must look. I guess i was sort of in denial about my weight thinking i could eat wot i want, when i want and that i would still look good. But reality is that you cant and like anything you have to work at it. Im sick of complaining about my weight and know i have to get off my fat ass and do something about it. WE put OURSELVES in these situations and only WE can change them!