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If you keep coming back, you've not given up right? I'm trying to get back. I realized that to have the life I want I need to actually get up and go get it. You can be uncomfortable and sore just sit'n or you can be uncomfortable and sore from doing something; the latter seemed like the better option. So here we are again, my image of the life I want and I. It is right there, just have to put in the effort to get it; right? Put in the effort, such a statement of action and purpose. As I feel my body slipping into a stale state of bla, weakness, issues, and not feeling attractive these are the feelings that I need to use as motivation to move forward off the stagnant state I have been in. To move and sweat and ache from a good work out, and want to do it again the next day. I used to be that person, worked out hard 5-6 days a week. And no I was not smaller, just in such amazing shape and getting smaller. Where did she go? Why is she fighting coming back? She was the one on track to the live the vision in my head. This full active life of hiking, canoeing, sailing, working out, going for long walks, not wasting time doing nothing, without constant pain in my feet and legs. This is the person I need to be again....Her. Big beautiful Her, willing to put in the effort it is going to take to step into, no wait ....to take the good life I have now and make it into the amazing life I want(and deserve). She must be starting to fight her way back to the top if I'm writing this, so keep fighting!! Keep pushing at my subconscious to make me want to do the effort. I need you back my Her....fight!!!!!
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