I was reading your profile, and OMG you sound JUST LIKE me a few years ago. It was like reading my own past bio. I can relate 100%, even down to the loss of your father. You have my DEEPEST sympathies. That is what brought me down too. I lost so many year of living...smh. I remember someone asking me during that time what I liked to do. I could not even give them an answer. That's when I realized that I didn't even know who I was anyone. I was so lost, and alone even in a room full of people. If I can climb out of that hole, you can too Hun! I'm not saying it will be easy, but it will be worth it! Start really focusing on yourself, and try different things to find something that you can enjoy again. Know that is what your dad would want you to do. If he could say one thing to you it would probably be, "I'm fine. Enjoy the rest of our life, because we only get one life to live.". YOU HAVE GOT THIS AND WE ARE ALL HERE TO SUPPORT YOU! xoxoxo