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Good morning FS friends
And so the journey continues. My endo cancelled my Monday appointment and deferred it by two weeks. Not a big deal really, just that these appointments keep me on track. Of late I've been struggling with food noise again. Don't know whether that is physiological specifically a byproduct of the cortisone injected into the hands twice in the last 6 weeks, or whether my Ozempic dosage needs to be increased (still on what is considered a starter dosage), whether it is a result of boredom due to forced inactivity, whether it is seasonal affective disorder given the amount of rain, lack of sun and not being in my beloved yard with the littles. Maybe it is entirely emotional. My Christmas stockings remained empty and so I packed them away yesterday. There was nothing for me under the tree at all. Yes. It's true. I'm childish. Not that I need a darn thing, but something, anything would have been nice. John doesn't believe in celebrating birthdays or Christmas, and yet I continue to always come up with something for him (this year was a custom cover for his Harley which he stores here in my garage). When will I ever learn?
So I guess that's it. I'm a childish disappointed person. Hoping for acknowledgment from a person that is utterly incapable of providing it. I've always been a giver, whether of my time, my brainpower or of things. Not so great at receiving things but that doesn't mean that I wouldn't appreciate an attempt.
After 19 years, some things never change. I, on the other hand need to have higher expectations of those I allow into my life and value myself more. Easier said than done.
This life journey is certainly one of learning.
Over and out
다이어트 캘린더 보기, 2024년 01월 6일:
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1140 kcal
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지방: 47.60g | 단백질: 104.20g | 탄수화물: 85.82g.
아침 식사: Orgain Organic Protein Plant Based Protein Powder Creamy Chocolate Fudge, GNC Wheybolic Classic Vanilla. 점심 식사: Egg, Kraft Classic Caesar Dressing, Piller's Turkey Bites, Everything Veggie Salad. 저녁 식사: Compliments Whole Wheat Naan Rounds, Home burger patty, Costco Kimchi. 간식/기타: Apples , Red Onions, Capers , Cooked Asparagus (from Fresh), Dom Reserve Smoked Atlantic Salmon. 더보기
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