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Today, I really appreciate the FS community and am staying with my plan because of it. Today marks 23 days since I decided to stop killing myself with unhealthy food choices. I guess it's been long enough that it's not new anymore, the results are less stunning, and it feels like drudgery sometimes. First, I wanted to skip exercise today. Later, I wanted to say "WTF I don't care," and eat a pile of PB toast (that would have led to a disaster). Instead, I came on here and was encouraged by seeing another big person exercising faithfully. I wanted to abstain from overeating because I know others here are sticking with their plans and it isn't always easy for them. It's not physical for me right now. It's mental. I was able to look beyond the PB toast and see the equivalent of a tidal wave of disappointment in myself that would crumble the resolve needed to continue improving my health. Already, I feel lighter. I feel less pain. It's easier to get up from a chair, easier to walk. Alone, I would have chucked it for a quick dopamine and seritonin hit. Thanks for being there.
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