Wisco Soul님의 저널, 2023년 06월 5일

I debated whether or not to share this. It’s personal, which is very out of character for me. But I am celebrating the first year on my journey of health, and I want to share that victory with all of you. I feel that perhaps to understand why it is such a victory to me, I need to be a bit forthcoming and share a bit of my story, which is hard for me to do, but something that I have been working on. Here goes….
I was always healthy and active throughout my childhood and into my 20’s. I would dance the night away, workout 5-6 days a week, bike or walk everywhere, and this of course allowed me to eat whatever I wanted. At the time I was happy with my body because I was healthy, strong and active. January 1998, I embarked on my career as a truck driver. I was 23 years old, weighed 165 pounds, and was a size 12/14. With the super sedentary lifestyle of living on the road for 300+ days per year, mixed with me being used to eating whatever I wanted, and topped with a ton of stress from an abusive husband, I gained 100 pounds my first year and ballooned up to 270lb. I didn’t realize how bad it had gotten until that next January because I had been wearing stretchy shorts with elastic waistbands. In 1999, when I went to put on my winter clothes, I couldn’t get my pants even up my thighs. I was a size 26 and beyond miserable. Food had become my coping drug of choice. I waffled back and forth between 260 and 300, eventually topping out at 310 in 2008. I did lose the same 50 pounds over and over again, staying down around 225 and then back up to 275. One time I even got down to 199. But of course, as many of us know, if a person doesn’t change their habits/lifestyle, and finds a WOE that they can live with for life, they will most likely gain it back. I did end up getting a reasonable handle on my health in 2012, but not to the extent that I wish I had. I got off the road on Labor Day, 2017. 20 years of hard living on the road has definitely taken its toll on my body. My health had deteriorated because of muscular skeletal problems due to the years of stagnation I put my body through, and then the 5 years of heavy intense labor I put my body through because, ironically, the last company I was with, I delivered, among other things, exercise equipment to gyms (like Planet Fitness, LA Fitness, Gold’s Gym, etc.) around the US and Canada. I could pick up my side of a 500lb treadmill and carry it up the stairs. That kind of labor wrecked my spine, joints, and tore tendons and ligaments. Fast forward to May 2022, I’m overweight (240.0lb) and sick. My age is 47, but biologically I am 75. My body is busted up and I am sick with a variety of fun chronic issues, many that I can’t get answers to, and new ones seem to pop up weekly. On May 22, 2022, I was super sick. It was the first time I had been out of bed in 3 days. As I sat on the couch with my poochie, I decided that I couldn’t live like this anymore and it was time to make changes! I decided to take control of my life, break my addiction to food, and get healthy. I told my husband, “Take a picture of me so when I start to think I can’t do this, then I can look at this picture and remind myself why I am doing it!” May 23, I made changes that were small, but changes that were the beginning of this journey I’m on. Every day is a new challenge, but every day I make progress. Somedays are a struggle. Somedays are a success. I’m far healthier than a year ago, but I have a long way to go. But I am very proud of the changes I have made and feel victorious, even though I just spent the last week in bed because of some weird vertigo that left as suddenly as it hit. Me from the past would have self-soothed with food and probably gained back 20 pounds. But I’m not that person anymore, and that’s why I’m feeling victorious!

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1521 kcal

지방: 43.34g | 단백질: 121.34g | 탄수화물: 188.49g.   Pre-Breakfast: Equate Fiber Therapy Orange Flavor, Athletic Greens AG1. 아침 식사: Pure Protein Chocolate Deluxe High Protein Bar (Small), Hershey's 100% Cocoa, Solutions4 Nutritional Shake: Vanilla. 점심 식사: Great Value Chicken Breast Tenderloins, Kraft Miracle Whip Dressing, Lewis Bake Shop Keto Bread. Afternoon Tea: Bananas, Hershey's Simply 5 Chocolate Syrup. 저녁 식사: Cucumber (Peeled) , Trader Joe's Jazz Apples, Great Value Chicken Breast Tenderloins, Carrots , Primal Kitchen Honey Mustard Dressing, Baby Spinach. 간식/기타: Stauffer's Whales with Real Cheddar Cheese Baked Snack Crackers, Dove Silky Smooth Dark Chocolate Promises, CC IceCream, Trader Joe's Raw Brazil Nuts. 더보기

2146 kcal

운동: Garmin - 24 시간. 더보기