HalfAssPrincess님의 저널, 2022년 10월 30일

Thanks for that. So many things motivate change, I remember going to the food court awhile back and not fitting into a counter seat, bar stool. While no one noticed my struggle (that I was aware) I felt humiliated. I don't think you should let his ex wife contribute to your struggle mentally, but if it motivates you to be better than use that frustration to your benefit. This sounds like a huge switching point in your life, plus kids will just slaughter that anthem anyhow. 😉 

Thank you for that. 10 years ago I had lost 90 pounds, and I’m back to almost where I was at my heaviest. I’m so angry with myself  

Food and Routines are challenging, prior to Covid I had been going to the gym very consistently, food was still hit and miss, I still drank more than I should and I was unhappy at work. During lock down I gained back (very quickly) all the weight lost and was at my heaviest yet. It was VERY discouraging, but then life got back on track and I have much better habits and routines. You can do this, it is never easy, but once you start some routines (healthy food prep is a great start) then you will move forward. Plus food costs make this the perfect time to get creative. 

Oh Carolyn, I had tears reading your post! I have been in those kind of situations way too many times (especially when working) and been shamed to my core. I know many might find humiliation perhaps motivating; I just sink deeper! Please be kind to yourself and get on track -with LOVE :) I had lost 80 pounds total 2019; gained 10 during Covid, then boom! another 20 with torn meniscus/MCL last year. I haven't found my way back YET. I will! Might need a bit of vanity to kick me into Just Do It mode LOL. I guess I just wanted to share that I know the struggle. I know how women (can) judge. From my understanding of success stories, coming from a place of Love works for the long haul. If you ever want to share privately, just shoot me a message! I believe in YOU and know you WILL be successful!!!! Gooooo C! :) 

Omg! Do not EVER feel ashamed of who you are!!!!!! You are beautiful, and wonderful, and exceptional with, or without anyone else’s ex being around. I firmly believe that no matter what the outside of us looks like, it’s the inside that is the most fragile and spectacularly beautiful thing that we have to share with someone. Be proud, walk tall, and carry yourself with the dignity you 100% deserve. 

hang in there Carolyn!!! keep focused on the progress you have made, and keep going! you will get into that seat eventually. 

I’m pretty sure he didn’t choose his ladylove by “seat size,” - since he isn’t still with his somewhat smaller EX! Just a thought … Keep going with your healthier lifestyle; and love the fact, as he obviously does, that you’re about a lot more than your physical dimensions. Both will make you happy 😃 You’re doing great ❤️