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Well I am proud of myself today, I got up early went running for about 30mins. I live in a large townhouse complex so I ran up and down the parking lot looking like an idiot but thankful (& hopefully)everyone was asleep. When I was younger I truly believed I was going to become a dancer, so I danced all the time, ran track in school, ride my bike religiously. So I was fit, this morning though I never felt so old and fat in my life!!! I began real slow at first and would do quick burst of running. Like run slow down the decline of the parking lot and then fast for the incline. I was so out of breath (I recently quit smoking...3mths strong...cold turkey-wasn't a "heavy smoker" to begin with)and I could feel my fat jiggle has I ran I knooooow to was not a pretty sight! I think if I saw myself I would either be sitting on the side laughing my ass off or crying or just both. I can see why that all the infomercials for exercise equipment are always thin, fat does not sell!
Any how I am also proud of how I am staying on my "diet" I really don't like calling it that because I am really just trying to lose and maintain a healthy weight and health life style. I am trying to dodge a diabetes bullet, it runs ramped in my family mom's and dad's so does the weight thing. And I don't want to be let my mother and obsess about my weight my whole life, I mean between starvation to her all yogurt all time to eating nothing but jelly beans or whoopers(chocolate malt candy balls)all the time!!! IN SHORT I just got to get health and stay on task!!!
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