I remember when I was 201.5 pounds (my top weight) and I'd run into people from high school who would say I heard you had a kid? My reply? "No, I got fat." Sure that made them uncomfortable but I was uncomfortable with myself so what did it matter? I still remember the day that I was in my bedroom with my mom (after losing 20 pounds) and one by one putting in all my size 5 clothing in a bag and saying I just have to accept my weight, I'll never be that small again. It was a sad day and I felt defeated which happens often in this weight loss journey. It isn't easy, everyday is a struggle and sometimes you feel like no one in the world understands. But today I was not defeated. I bought those size 5 capri's I was eyeing up for a few weeks and guess what? They fit! I zipped them up buttoned them and there was no "overhand". That wasn't the last test though, I sat down with them on and NO BULDGE. What a success! I feel wonderful today; I'm on a mission. I won't get there tomorrow and I won't get there next week but I WILL get there.
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