Thilesha님의 저널, 2021년 03월 24일

babe. I promise. there are days I do feel bleh and unmotivated #today! #yesterday! I do it for myself because I easily fall off my own wagon. don't judge yourself too harshly. you have done amazing things and your body is adapting to its new self. this is not an easy thing we are doing and sometimes just making one good decision can be enough for one day 😁 mental health first - do what makes you feel emotionally strong for Yourself ❤️💃🏽 

I also wonder about this weighing daily Vs weighing at intervals. I did the noom diet trial and they advocate daily weighing at the same time as a kind of counter 'avertion therapy' ie one gets over the fear through regular exposure of the fearful experience and weighs up the losses against the gains in a general picture (some days u win some days u loose). it didn't talk much about how, in the moment one looses the perspective of a general overview. maybe they go on to discuss it but I didn't continue post trial because a) it's expensive when what I really needed was a basic calorie counter b) I got a bit annoyed about their definitions of green/red foods which don't embrace a low carb or keto diet variant. c) the psychology was very geared to being an urban living youthful singleton. (no discussion on the complexity of cooking for a family with varying dietary needs and said temptation. lots of discussion on how to avoid the temptation of doughnuts in the break room and how to not feel skaam about ordering a salad for lunch when eating out with co-workers). but there is something to be said about the psychology of healthy eating. lots of us are here because we have an unhealthy relationship with food for various reasons. one of those I think is deeply related to ideas of control and compulsive behaviour however that personally effects u. I would suggest that if you are taking a break then u should do so. which means not logging calories or weighing compulsively because u want to test that u have learned how to eat intuitively and is a step on the road to what things will be like when u are eating to maintain. Or, knowing full well that u are going to be letting your hair down a bit, log the calories because u know u need the fact check breakers but lay off the weighing. I don't know what ur field of study is but u wouldn't take a break from reading articles and/or doing research experiments because ur brain needs a breather and then beat yourself up because u are ill prepared for an exam or presentation. one can't do both at the same time. if it's a break do a break and reassess post festive time about what u need to do that suits u going forward. 

Shereen - thank you so much. I think I do need a complete mental break.. today it was raining heavy and I couldn’t do my normal afternoon walk and I was kind of relieved, I think that is a sign that I have probably exerted myself a little too much.  

StarRat - wow, thank you so much. Your comment is so educational. Definitely think you are right. Today was my first official day on ‘break’ and I was still a little anxious.. I used to weigh everyday at the start of my journey and small gains would never demotivate me, but now a year or so into the journey and those gains seem to get me down, seriously. I wonder why the change? Maybe it’s because I want to lose as much as everyone else but I know that I’m also not willing to compromise and participate in tactics that are unsustainable for me e.g. 5 day water fasts or OMAD.. while these work for many, I really don’t think I can do that for the rest of my life. So I calorie count, and that has worked phenomenally, but the weight is slow to come off. I think I need to remind myself that 200g a week is still worth celebrating, and comparing myself to others is in actuality doing more harm than good 😔