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I have been doing this diet one week now, based on what I read in a First magazine about anti-estrogen foods. Yesterday was hard because my 1-hour trip to Orlando ended up taking 6 hours. I bought and ate some pistachio nuts and orange juice on the road -- acceptable foods, but high-cal foods. Today, I had half a rotten peach (yuck!), then made a bowl of red stuff: red bell pepper, tomato slices, and ruby grapefruit. I'm about halfway through that bowl. I also ate a small, overripe avocado. Tonight's supper will be (as usual on this diet) half a bag of frozen vegetables and a tillapia filet, microwaved in one of those new nuker bags. I might use the other half of the veggies to make some soup, using a thimble-full of chicken stock paste. The hot soup seems to feel better than anything else late at night.
I dont' know what I weigh. The last time I had health insurance, I weighed 299, perilously close to that 300 mark. I had vowed to shoot myself in the head if I ever reached 300 pounds. I probably surpassed 300, but since I don't have a scale or a doctor anymore, I can't tell. So that's why I'm still alive. The last time I lost a lot of weight, I waited a whole month before I weighed myself, so I'll never know what I started at in that diet (but I'm estimating it was about 280). Now it might take me a month to get DOWN TO 280. I feel ridiculously huge and self-loathing. But I do feel a little better waking up every day now, knowing that I will be hungry all day and that it's all adding up to (or subtracting down to) something important. I can do this. I did it before, and I'm older and more insulin-resistant now -- but WISER.
I haven't thought much about exercise yet. I did make my husband drag in an ancient exercycle out of someone's trash, and it's on the front porch, but the porch is so crowded I can't climb on it. Yet. I did some housework today, mostly dishes and orgaizing, cleaning my Feng Shui WEALTH corner of dust and clutter. I'm supposed to be doing a sample edit for an environmentalist, but here I am instead.
OH, and even though I don't have a scale, I can tell I'm losing weight by the way my shorts fit. So this is working. How could it not work? I think I'm only eating about 1200 cals a day and almost all of them are fruits, vegetables and lean fish. Hoo yah!
It feels nice having someone to talk to, even if it's only me.
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