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Well, I figured today was as good a day as any to start this, considering tomorrow never comes. Right? I have never weighed this much, although I have been overweight ever since I can remember. I thought I weighed around 260ish, but I went to the doctor last week and, guess what? WRONG. SO WRONG. Tipped in at 284. Holy...freakin'...crap. Yeah, something's gotta give...before the floor below me does...
I have been "trying to lose weight" since forever. I can only remember one time that it actually really worked and I kept it off (at that time). The key is to keep it off PERMANENTLY, though, which hasn't happened. I did do Weight Watchers in high school and was down to 197, which I LOVE LOVE LOVE to be at again.
Mainly, I know I need to do this for my health. I'm lucky I don't have diabetes or high blood pressure as of yet. I do have PCOS, which hopefully will start to calm down once I start getting healthy. Another reason is just because I want to change the way people see me. Just because I'm fat, people look at me differently. I'm not crazy. I can see the looks I get...and don't get me wrong, I dress appropriately for my size, and carry it well...and don't walk around acting stupid - lol. Also, I don't have problems with people being attracted to me, but I just feel out of place when I go out to a bar, or anywhere really and almost everyone around me is smaller or in shape...it's annoying.
The first time I walked in awhile, I did in my neighborhood with a friend, and a jeep full of teenage boys rode by...one of them yelled out, "Go back to Sea World!" You know, I'm glad I didn't have a gun with me. Ha. People are so stupid. Mind your own business - prick. Thanks. :)
Anyway, I walked last night, and lightly jogged a little. This morning I did it again...2 miles. Feels good to say I did that...I just have to keep up the willpower to do it every morning. I really want this. So bad I can't stand it. So here's to the beginning. :) Cheers.
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